If I survive this semester – what should be my final semester of college – it will be a small miracle. I have to wonder if I’m focused on the negatives or if the stress of work and school are overwhelming me, but the bottom line is I am having the absolute worst time focusing – period.
On the upside of things, I have managed to pull ahead in the regular course work and Case Study for my Business Policy class. I wrote and submitted the case study two months in advance and got a 100 on it, so yay me! One paper down and three to go. I have completed all of the research for my Seminar in Business class. (This class is only worth 2 credit hours and only requires this 1 research paper.) But still it’s a required class to graduate and a paper is still a paper.
I think I have finally managed to understand the Business Simulator (CapSim) for the Business Policy class. I feel terrible for my team mate because I was so far behind the curve ball of understanding that I think our team is in dead last place. The good news is that she is fantastically nice and willing to shoulder at least 50% of the work as I am, so I believe we make a good team. It’s not easy being CEO of your own company and playing in multi-millions, responsible for hundreds of employees’ lives and shareholders profits. So far my take away is to have a strategy and stick with it.
The advanced research class is the one that is killing me. 70+ pages of content is not easy. The research is done. The reference page is complete. The Abstract and Thesis statements are complete. It’s the background, problem and supporting material that I am having so much trouble diving into. And it’s NOT like the subject is all that sexy either; Negotiation Strategy and The Role of Attitude. (Blech!) pfooey!
That leaves the Management of Change class – and this class has the most required regular work plus a term paper. The good news is, that paper is finished also and uploaded, but this teacher is incredibly . . . hard to please with papers and tore my first paper to shreds (which in all honesty as I’m used to getting 100’s kind of tore me up). She called my findings “arbitrary” and I’m like – how ‘arbitrary’ can expounding on a researched subject can it be? Sheesh. Whatever – I got a B on it. Who cares. LOL . . . When did getting a “B” become failing?
Oh lord, have I become an Asian Tiger Mom to myself?! – Probably. LOL!
Thanks to the water leak at the house and the VERY mild winter and now saturated Spring my Eczema is worse than it has EVER been in my entire life! Embarrassingly so! I have these red, inflamed, itchy patches of skin on both legs now and the tops of my hands! I’ve had to wrangle away a little time to head back into the gym to tan in hopes that the exposure to the UV light will help it again. The upswing on THAT is that I feel so good after tanning that I have been working out. The bad news is – it takes precious time away from my shiny new hubby.
Speaking of shiny, new hubby’s – mine isn’t perfect, but he is very sweet and thoughtful. I can honestly say that no one in my entire life has ever been so keenly aware of . . . ME! And isn’t THAT interesting? Being an inherent people pleaser, I am always acutely aware of others. I try very hard to head things off at the pass because I’m blessed with being naturally observant, so when someone is actually that way to me, for me – it’s a little . . . disconcerting.
Don’t get me wrong! I LOVE that there is someone out there that loves me so much that they can discern the subtleties of me; the nuances that comprise my mood, personality and attitude.
It’s really refreshing. Thus one of many reasons why I love him.
I guess that’s all I’ve got here. It’s time for another cup of coffee and more work.
Here’s hoping you have a great Friday and a wonderful weekend. Keep fighting the good fight, be the best YOU, you can be, hug your loved ones and never stop assessing your ‘Lesson’s Learned.’
~ Kat Devine 
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